I don't care much for country music. So it's rare when a country song hits me, and really makes me stop and think. And when the words of a country song keep coming to mind. When I need those words to keep coming to mind so that they remind me of a truth I want to avoid. Anyway, the country song that I feel this way about is Trace Adkins' song, "You're gonna miss this."
Right now, I'm in the middle of some of my dearest friends' getting married. I am so happy for them. But deep inside of my heart, there's a tiny whisper that seems to say, "Wouldn't it be nicer if that were me?" And another voice inside of my heart sighs and seems to say, "But you know that God has something else planned for you." And I can't help but agree, because I do know that. I believe with my whole heart that there is something that God has planned for me that I have to do before I get married. And I want to get married, and I want to raise a family. But I have so far to go before I'm ready to be someone's mother or someone's wife. But a part of me still wants to hurry it all up. But then the words of that song come to me...
You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this
I believe that someday I will get married. Sometimes it's hard to imagine that I could miss these days of living at home, and being somewhat lonely. That I could miss not having someone right there who is my best friend. But at the same time, I think about who I am, and even who I want to be. And I can imagine myself missing these days. I've been able to read for fun. I've been able to serve my family (though sometimes that can be tough to do), and I've been able to enjoy my life just as it is right now.
I hope, and believe, that someday I will get married. And I will probably miss these days. And I wish knowing that made this time any easier. And it helps a little. But I can't help but still be a little bit impatient. :D
One day at a time. Because if I don't rush them, when my dreams do come true, they will be better than anything I imagined on my own.
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